You're not worthy

Well, I can honestly say that I'm bummed. My wife told me last night that she talked to our last Pastor, the one she still considers her Pastor or more accurately spiritual adviser, about arraigning a meeting for prayer, anointing with oil and laying-on of hands. Apparently, the pastor won't pray or lay hands and anoint me with oil because doing so would imply that being Trans is an illness or "condition". 
He would consider counseling me, however. We have a tentative meeting for this Friday @ 3pm.

You know what, I don't care what he calls it, really. The power of God can flow through human hands no matter the reason as long as I'm willing to receive it. Yes, I understand that I can (and do) do the same thing. I don't need a human conduit. However, she said that this was one thing that we/I had not tried. I whole-heartedly agreed. Why not? If God wants to move through a human, who am I to stand in the way?

What sucks, is that what will happen at this meeting is that I'll be told I'm sinning, an abomination and a whole host of other stuff that if I were to describe, would probably put me over the edge.I know this because this pastor has done it before the last time my wife and I "counseled" with him. 

Apparently I'm not worthy. The problem is that I've felt unworthy/wrong/misplaced  in my human existence and now I'm being told the same thing about my spiritual existence.  

I've always believed that church was a hospital for sinners, I guess it's not.

I'm at a loss.