Much love

Hey everybody,

I just wanted to say that I love each and every one of you. I'm sorry I haven't posted anything of value in the last six months.

To say that I've been busy is an understatement, however, the main reason I haven't posted is because of my military obligation.

I'm still in. And I'm post-op. Interesting dilemma, huh? I've been trying to lay low, but this process of getting discharged is a long one, I'm realizing  I don't want to get discharged, but will go if I'm told.

Have you ever know anybody that was post-op and still in? We must be few and far between.

Also, I've been trying to be mindful of what I post here, because I have family that I love still and some of the trans stuff frightens them. Not that this silence will help, but it can't hurt for the time being.

I love you all and can't wait till I can write about all of the good stuff that has happened. 

Not that getting here hasn't been painful. I'll always have a smoldering, black hole in my heart from the loss of   my wife, family, loved ones and friends. So sad to see them turn away.

I can tell you that in spite of the losses, my life has never been better and I know in my heart of hearts that becoming Caroline was the best thing I could have ever done. I knew it the moment I opened my eyes in the recovery room. Great day indeed!

Smile!