Wrapped In Blue

I just finished Donna Rose's "Wrapped In Blue". A very good book; 4 mascara wands out of a possible 5. I think that the only possible 5 wand-voted book would be mine. Just kidding. It was a very good book.
A few cringe inducing moments, but overall, a very good read. I saw so many parallels in my life. From my wife to our son, to the length of our marriage and to the age of our Son. Though I am still living at our family home, I can identify with most everything so far. It scares me so much. I know that what I'm doing is the only way to keep me alive; to be alive and live as a healthy, viable and well functioning adult.
But.
The experiences that I read about and hear about are all over the map. I think though, that my family situation is most like Donna's.
The only thing that I see as a glimmer of hope, is when I think back to the way my wife handled and treated her ex-husband where our oldest children were concerned. No matter  that her ex was a douche bag of the highest order, she always treated him; in front of our children, with respect.
I can only hope that she will do the same with me when the time comes.
And then?
Back to the book: Each time I read a book like this, I am always eager to learn "and then?" Seriously, there is always the life story from birth, to realization, to hiding and disguises, to running away from it, then at some point there is the gender confrontation, the decision of what to do, the impact on the family and job, then....the surgery.
Where is the "And Then?"
I need more.
About the only book I can think of that addressed the "And Then?" is Helen Boyd with the follow up to "My Husband Betty" with "She's Not The Man I Married".
And still.
I want more, I need more. What's next? Blogs fill some of the gap. What am I looking for that I can't find? I'm not trying to live vicariously through them, I am simply trying to prepare the way. I need better, more up to date directions or information or strength.
Probably that is what my gap is missing. Strength.
I thought going into this past weekend that I had it. I had some incredible discussion and an in-person meeting with somebody that I respect immensely. I came away from that meeting feeling like I met a new friend and left with a renewed spirit. I felt that I could accomplish my goal.
Then, I finished this book and thought that my problems were almost insurmountable. Depression was right around the corner.
Then the morning dawned and things are not as dim as they were the night before. I also had a good relaxing run along a beautiful course and feel refreshed.
I'll sign off with that. Read this book. It's very good and you won't regret picking it up.