He would consider counseling me, however. We have a tentative meeting for this Friday @ 3pm.
You know what, I don't care what he calls
it, really. The power of God can flow through human hands no matter the
reason as long as I'm willing to receive it. Yes, I understand that I
can (and do) do the same thing. I don't need a human conduit. However, she
said that this was one thing that we/I had not tried. I whole-heartedly
agreed. Why not? If God wants to move through a human, who am I to
stand in the way?
What sucks, is that what will happen at
this meeting is that I'll be told I'm sinning, an abomination and a
whole host of other stuff that if I were to describe, would probably put
me over the edge.I know this because this pastor has done it before the last time my wife and I "counseled" with him.
Apparently I'm not worthy. The problem is that I've felt unworthy/wrong/misplaced in my human existence and now I'm being told the same thing about my spiritual existence.
I've always believed that church was a hospital for sinners, I guess it's not.
I'm at a loss.
Hi Caroline,
ReplyDeleteIf you haven't found some of us Christians here abouts, be it known that I am a Christian who just happens to be transgendered. There are more of us out here too. Suzi from, http://suzisfreedom.blogspot.com/ ,is a Christian. Debra from, http://blog.transitioningpast.com/ , Is a Christian also. There are more, but this might help you get started.
As for you not being worthy, we are all not worthy. Isa 64:6 But we are all like an unclean thing, And all our righteousnesses are like filthy rags; We all fade as a leaf, And our iniquities, like the wind, Have taken us away.
But we have redemption through the blood of Christ and if we confess our sins to Jesus Christ, with a pure heart, our sins are forgiven.
If I can be of any help, please let me know. I gave myself to the Lord over forty years ago. I'm not a scholar by any means, but I believe the Bible to be my only authority, and so far, I have not found anything in the Bible to say that being transgendered is a sin. You may contact me at fandfmfgco(at)gmail(dot)com If you wish.
Hugs and prayers sister,
Cynthia
Cynthia,
ReplyDeleteyou are right on. Thanks for the support for my sister.
Caroline,
Cynthia hits it on the head. Also, I can't figure out why my profile says Stuey. hmmmm
Sean
I am sure that the Pastor is well meaning and trying to help but I wonder how he feels he can say that who you are is wrong and being T is a sin. God made you who you are - and perhaps it's not always easy but I guess that we should rejoice for the life we have been given.
ReplyDeleteOur path is not always easy - it's not made easier by the poor understanding (unwillingness?) of others.
As for the prayers - I think there are many people who believe that prayers can cure all but it hasn't worked for me, I have 30+ years of experience here. I think that this mean God see that there is nothing to cure ?
As a postscript, I'd like to clarify the illness part. The Pastor doesn't consider it an illness, not because he thinks that I was born this way or anything progressive like that, but that this is a demonic possession or worldly influence. The comment he said that was related to me this morning was that it is an addiction much like pornography. He continued with the statement that I'm "choosing" to do this and willfully ruining our family.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you are going through this but sometimes no matter what anyone else says...we have to do certain things anyway.
ReplyDeleteI know. I went through pastoral/christian counseling. It was not fun. It also wasn't horrifying either....but it definitely did not 'help' me become any less trans.
Eventually though, through that same church, the men's bible study I was a part of did end up helping set the stage for my suicide attempt...so that in itself is scary.
I hope you are able to get what you need out of whatever is to come and that you can come out of it unscathed.